Do I hear wedding bells? Not yet... :(

Not sure why... but my thoughts today have only been those of marriage. I hate how I feel when I look at my friends and family who have been married 3 or 4 years and have families, I want that! I am glad it hasn't happened yet, because I wasn't ready, but I feel like I am ready now! I don't want to be single. I don't want to be alone. I don't want to miss out on being a mother or a wife. I feel like my chances of having these things decrease as the years go by... I don't want that! I want to be able to go out with girlfriends and talk about mommy things, I want to talk about how much I love my husband! I don't even really care about the wedding, the dress, the rings. Don't get me wrong, I want that too, but more then that I want the commitment of forever. Austin and I both said we wanted to wait until we were at least 25 and I am glad we choose to wait because we have been through so much together and I think that will make us stronger, BUT my time is coming and the closer it get the more I want it! Austin is who I want to be with for the rest of my life, he is my best friend and the love of my life. I couldn't imagine life without him. I know marriage isn't going to be easy, but I can't wait to see what challenges we are going to have to face or the hard decisions we will have to make. It's scary, but I know we will overcome it all! I love him so much! Now... If I could only find a way to figure out when he is going to pop that question!?!