Loved ones are always picked last.

I hate the feeling like I am last priority in the person I am dating life. It makes me feel like crap, as would it to anyone! I am probably being a little sensitive since I am PMS-ing, but this is when my true feeling come alive. Haha! I really don't know how else to explain it, but I feel like I am being picked last in soccer. I have always felt like I put whoever I am dating as one of my top priorities in life, even when life gets busy I still try to make time for that special someone, but I am left feeling like that isn't how guys treat me. I am a very passive, easy going person, I brush things off just to keep peace. I guess you could call me a people pleaser, but the older I get the less pleasing I have become. I have a hard time talking about my feelings because I have an even harder time explaining them. They always come out wrong. I want to be able to tell people how I am feeling without being rude or misinterpreted. What I feel is real and when I talk to people about how I feel it comes off rude or as a joke. So hear my cry... I need to feel like I am being loved and I need to feel that through the extra little things you do. Tell me I look pretty once in a while, talk to me with a caring voice when I call, act like you are excited to do something I like to do. The extra little things are what makes me feel special! I know that you love me. I feel awful for saying these things, but all you girls out there are agreeing with me. I don't mean it harsh and I don't mean to cause harm. I am telling you what I want. I am tired of being insecure. I am not an insecure person and I do have a lot to offer! So why am I left feeling this way? I guess today I have finally decided to say something about what I want. I love you, please just love me.